I know.
It's been a while.
It may yet be a while longer. There's too much going on in real space and I don't want to document it all here else I'll just sound like Mrs BadNews all the time. I've heard others say that at times like this you should blog the trivial things in life. It's easy to think about and stops the muse from deserting you. When did blogging become such hard work?
I've been blogging for a long time - 6 years in fact - and find I'm less inclined to blog about personal things these days. I don't know if that's because I don't want people to know me or because I had my 15 minutes of fame and it rather blew up in my face afterwards. It got mighty uncomfortable having people Google me using my employer's name. No one wants to get dooced and that included me. I'm not employed anymore so you'd think that would take the pressure off. Perhaps it takes time to feel comfortable enough to put your guard down again. Then I worry that by constantly writing trivia I'm trivialising who I am. Or have I got an over inflated ego by stating that.
Am I, in fact, making mountains out of molehills?
'Course I am and I shall stop it immediately.
More soon. Honest.
"Do what you want, write what you want, this is for you too."
I've said this to others in the past but seem to have forgotten it applies to me. Thank you for reminding me. I should follow some of my own advice!
It's interesting the things that I find private that you may not and vice versa. We each have to write what makes us feel good or what will get us in the least amount of trouble with the relatives!!
I can totally relate. It is weird because as much as I try to blog about the non personal things, the personal things sometimes work there way in.
Yes, indeed, follow your own advice, Elle!
Having said that, though, I've been at this for just over five years now, and am finding myself struggling a bit to find things to say these days, too. My life has become so much quieter because of the CFS, which doesn't give me a lot of "doing stuff" to talk about. The obvious solution would be to get more into my deep thoughts and such, but my naturally reserved nature balks a bit at that. I love it when others open up and give a glimpse of what really makes them tick as human beings, but find it a bit hard to "let go" myself. Fear of judgement, I guess. Or fear of being locked up in a psych ward! :)
i find it to be therapeutic, blogging. Though I do go through periods where I don’t want to say anything either because there isn’t much to say or things are so bad that I can’t bear to write them. But over all writing about my feelings and all the things going on in my life, big and small, help me cope and keep truckin’. Do what you want, write what you want, this is for you too.